I know that some filthy humans managed to sow a program to my subconscious (Spring '22) and their "ok" line was "Σβήστε τη" (Erase her). I wish i manage to find out who they were.

While their relay-race kept on...

By whomever is within the "they",
a thought gets stopped from being "expressed" right from the moment that the brain sparks (so to say).

If i'm more efficient than that, and the thought starts being phrased - whether it's with mental printing or actively wording, then an emoji is being projected. i suppose the goal is to distract the Mind.

I trust i've irritated many folks ... but "oh well" .

There is always the 3rd way of thinking, "imaging", which is still thriving.
A trained eidetic-memory is a great mental asset and i'm very thankful for it.
I've traveled miles with illustrative-trains-of-thoughts, so hopes up.

During January & February i managed to keep an enormous amount of thoughts & trains-of, into the mental plane. Of course there was an enormous amount of thoughts (triggered or self-sourcing) that was verbalized as well, but what can an overthinking Mind do?

Especially when the triggers are -almost constant- throughout the day and during sleep as well.
There were many times, as far as i remember, that while waking up for the 2 seconds that one needs as to change side, i was talking. i don't remember what i said, but i remember talking. Who knows what was going on , how many people talked "in my head". Or worse, what might have been said in my head  - using my voice.

With all the time they had all these years & all the effort that was massively applied, some folks can call themselves *mentors of death & decay* .
Especially since abuse is one of the ways they have fun.

At least, i still ...
distinguish whether it's my thought or a playback using my voice.
I try to keep it calm - but i've secured the "keep it sane" part.

I might be drawn into vortexes , but know that i do try to spiral up.

Take care 🌻